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[Jun. 12th, 2003|06:46 pm] |
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Heh, I guess i'll update monthly now or something. Well, today was my last day of school and i'm pretty sad. I'm not going to see a lot of my friends over the summer because of a lot of them are going on trips. Today was really boring. After our pointless half-day, I went to GI Joe's to do the final interview, i'm going to start working next Monday. I'm really glad I got the job, I really wanted to work there since Jeff also works there. I didn't want to work someplace where knew no one. Anyways, I was going to go to Joe's baseball game today but I decided not to. He had a double header and I was in no mood to stand out there in the blazing sun for four hours. The thing that sucks the most is that i'm not going to hang out with him much this summer. He has American Legion baseball, work, football practice and band. We are rarely going to see each other and it's really going to suck. I'm going to miss him so much. I finally told him the other day how I felt about him. It was really weird but he said he already suspected. It hurts me that he can't see me the way I see him and it hurts more that we're best friends and even if he did like me in that way, I wouldn't be willing to give up our friendship. I guess i'm never going to be happy. The only thing I succeed at, sports and school, are the least important things right now in my life. I would give them up in a second just to be find someone that loves me and so I could be happy... |
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[May. 9th, 2003|11:36 am] |
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I can't believe how long has it been since I last updated this. More than 8 months. A whole lot has happened in my life since then, but I don't really want to go into that. All that is important is that i'm in love. I don't know if it'll work out but I know I can deal with it when the time comes. I've changed so much in the past year. I've stopped caring too much of what people think about me. I've become less judgmental, conceited and angry. I'm just a normal 16 year-old kid, that wants to leave all the stuff that made him the angry person he was, behind. I'm glad that i've changed. This entry isn't really share all my experiences but just so everyone knows i'm still here, even though a whole lot of you have forgotten me. Maybe i'll start updating again, I don't know yet. |
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[Sep. 7th, 2002|03:17 pm] |
It's Jason's Birthday!!!!!! Happy Birthday you big stud you.
You are my best friend online and I hope I get to meet you one day. Have an awesome birthday because you deserve to be happy.
You be a sexy daddy. |
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[Aug. 28th, 2002|01:46 pm] |
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| | Aaliyah- I Care 4 U | ] |
Yesterday's entry that I could't post because my interent was being a bitch >:o
Football practice ^+^. I'm pretty sore right now. Damn daily doubles are killing me. Anyways, I'm looking forward to school (as shocking as that sounds). Mostly because I want to see everyone and I want our football games to start. Ima going to be pretty busy, I have to do football, journalism and focus as after school activities so, it's going to be pretty tough for me to have free time. It's ok I guess, as long as it does me good in the long run. Today I had to go to a physical therapy session after football practice. Hopefully they can fix my damn hips and damn uneven legs so I can be as physical as I am without my stupid legs and hips bothering me. The lady said that hopefully by March this whole problem with my legs will be better, but it still will take much more time for it to heal completely because I was born with this problem. I'm going to be busy this weekend. On Saturday Matt, Marty, Jon, Scott and I are going to see a movie, go to the FFC and out to pizza. It's kinda what we always do. On Sunday my sister is having a family barbeque. It's going to be pretty fun. I'm glad that my last weekend of summer vacation is going to be awesome. Hopefully this year will be great! |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2002|02:16 pm] |
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| | Good Charlotte- "Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous" | ] |
Well I got my schedule today, and i'm pretty happy with it...
1st Period: English 10 (Honors) (2 Semesters)
2nd Period: Algebra II (2 Semesters)
3rd Period: Journalism (2 Semesters)
4th Period: Biology (2 Semesters)
5th Period: Weight Training (1 semester class/1st Semester)
5th Period: Global Studies (1 semster class/ 2nd Semester)
6th Period: Japanes II (2 Semesters)
7th Period: Leadership (2 Semesters)
Extra Period: Focus (1 Semester class/ 2nd semester) |
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[Aug. 20th, 2002|04:55 pm] |
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| | Goo Goo Dolls- "Big Machine" | ] |
Tomorrow i'm going to get my schedule for my Sophmore year. I'm excited to go back to school, I wanna see the people that I didn't get to see over the summer and I want to know who I got my classes with. I know that i'm going to be in Algebra 2, Japanese 2, Honors English 10 and Biology. That's about it. I'm more excited over my electives. My top two choices were Journalism and Weight Training, hopefully i'll get both. Anyways, i've been kind of busy with Football, today they made us get into teams and compete against each other. My team got second place, which isn't bad but I still don't like losing. They haven't announced who the starters are going to be but i'm sure I got my spot guaranteed. I'm really looking forward to this weekend. My parents and little sister are leaving for the weekend to attend this migratory classes that has to do with becoming citizens or whatever. Natalie is going to spend the weekend in Klamath Falls with her friend and Chris is doing something that has to do with next year when he goes to college so he's going to U of O. Meaning that i'm going to have our house to myself. Saturday i'm taking my oldest sister Susy out, since she can't drive because she got a temporary license restriction for getting too many tickets. But after i'm done with that Mike, Jon, Brenton, Max and I are all going cruising in our Yukon (yay!) which my parents don't let me drive but since they are taking the Acura and leaving for the weekend they wont know I drove it. They are also going to spend the night. It's going to be really fun. Anyways, that's about it. I'm out... |
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[Aug. 14th, 2002|04:27 pm] |
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LOL that was fun. I just commented like 40 times in Jason's latest entry. The entry has like 87 replies so far! EEP! |
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[Aug. 13th, 2002|06:25 pm] |
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Every time I have to go school shopping, I always get in a fight with my parents. I'm not very good at being a modest spender. I usually buy too much stuff and end up wasting a lot more money. Today I had to finish school shopping. Last week I went to buy clothes and got two pairs of shoes, two pairs of pants and two shirts. Today I had to buy at least three pairs of clothes and some sweaters for fall. So I asked my parents for money and ended up arguing with them. Finally we came to a compromise that my mom would buy me my school supplies and half of the clothes I needed, meaning that she had to go with me, which is bad and good. The bad thing is that she nags alot, and is very impatient, the good news is that she usually likes doing things in a hurry, which is what I like to do. I hate going shopping. Don't get me wrong, I love going out to the mall and other places but not shopping. I get too frustrated since I am very picky over the clothes I buy. Surpisingly, I ended up getting the clothes I needed very quickly and didn't end up spending too much money. Afterwards we went to buy my school supplies and to eat at Sharis'. I'm relieved that I am done with all the school shopping, now I have school to look forward to in three weeks. Next week I am going to register and get my picture taken. Bah, this summer went by fast....
Boo, nobody comments on my LJ entries, nobody likes me *sobs* |
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[Aug. 13th, 2002|06:07 pm] |
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I had a very fun weekend...I could've updated yesterday but I was too lazy to, I spent the day yesterday doing basically nothing. Well this entry is going to be long, I'll use an Lj cut for this...
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[Aug. 11th, 2002|03:52 pm] |
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Name: David
Age: 15
Location: Oregon
have you lived in the same place your whole life?: Nope. I've lived in two different towns and three different houses.
Best "real life" friends: Brenton, Rocio, Max, Jon and Nicole.
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[Aug. 4th, 2002|09:17 am] |
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| | Eminem- Cleanin' out My Closet | ] |
I've been pretty busy the last few days. I've gone out to see Austin Powers in Goldmember, Signs, Reign of Fire and The Bourne Identity in the last week. I've gone out to eat at night with my friend several times and i've been going to Football practice three/four days a week. I have been having so much fun. I'm out of my little depression mood that I fell in a little while ago. I feel great. On Friday I patched things up with my mom and I feel pretty comfortable with out relationship I guess. Our trip to Spain is on hold. My sister is having marital problems and that usually triggers her endless disorders to come out. My family is very dysfunctional. Most of us have had some kind of disorder in the past five years. And we've caused plenty of trouble at home and school. Heh, all of us are chemicall imbalanced. Anyways, I had a big long talk with Nicole yesterday. We talked about us and our relationship. After a while we both decided that it was time for us to get back together to see what is going to come of this relationship. I'm very happy because no matter what i've said and done, Nicole is the only person i've truly felt i've loved in that way. Today we are going to see Master of Disguise. I'm looking forward to holding her like I used to, I really did miss her. |
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[Aug. 1st, 2002|11:42 am] |
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I feel pretty bad right now. My mom and I had a huge fight today. It started over the stupidest thing. We ended up arguing and then actually shouting at each other. It sucks that I feel like everyday I like my mom less. I know it sounds horrible but everytime I see my mom get older and meaner I start thinking just how much i'm getting to dislike her. I still love her but not as much as I once did and makes me very sad.... |
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[Jul. 19th, 2002|03:04 pm] |
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| | Shakira- Objection | ] |
I'm going to vibes today, hopefully nothing will happen there. I know that I have to be careful, I get vurnerable when i'm not in my senses. I hope Nicole is there, I really need her right now.... |
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[Jul. 18th, 2002|01:48 pm] |
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Well yesterday was a close call. I won't get into too much detail but I almost did something I would regret later. It was in the heat of the moment, it's a good thing I had enough self-control to stop it. I'm beyond confused right now.... |
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[Jul. 17th, 2002|12:37 pm] |
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Yesterday so extremely fun. Joe, Brenton, Kraig, Jon and myself went to the fair together. It was funness the whole time. We got this bracelet that let you ride all of the rides free. So basically we went on most of them. I'm usually not scared of going on them but there was this one that you hang upside down like 200 feet high for about a minute, that one did scare me a little, i'm not a hanging upside down kind of person. But it was really fun. I also saw Roco, Rachel, Nicole and Shonda there. I went on a ride with Nicole, it was pretty fun. Even though we still don't talk as much as we used to we are still pretty good friends. Afterwards we all went to the food stands and we bought about ten of this really yummy food called "Homemade fried bread". I also drank about 100 oz. of soda, so after I ate, we went on a ride and I really did feel like I was going to throw up. Not a good idea to eat that much before you go on a ride again. Anyways, today we are going to Chris's house and swimming in his gigantic pool. He is ordering pizza too, so it's going to be really fun.
How's my "lovelife" going? Well....
There are three people I really care about right now.
Of course there is Nicole, both of us care a lot for each other and possibly in the future we could be boyfriend and girlfriend again but I still think we need more time to be single and have fun with other people.
Jason...what can I say about him? I love everything about his personality. He is so funny and fun to talk to. Of course there is two problems with me liking him. I think it?s unnatural to like someone online in that way and of course we have the fact that Scott and Jason supposedly "love" each other.
And now there?s a third person that i?m really starting to like. I won?t say who it is yet, but I will talk about this person soon. |
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[Jul. 15th, 2002|09:30 am] |
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Well I feel better, not a whole lot, I'm still hurting inside but being alone yesterday really helped me out. After I went crazy yesterday I went out for a walk (at around 10 PM) I just thought about everything in my life right now. I realized that I let my pride get in the way to often. I want to be the only special one, the one who everyone likes, I can't stand being second. That's one of the reasons that I was so upset of Jason. I know I really do like him but my outbursts were both jealousy and this stupid pride that doesn't let me be. I also realized that not going online isn't really worth. After all, it's no one's fault but mine. And I really was going to miss Jason, Scott, Matt, Lucy and everyone online if I did. And right now, I feel so bad for Jason and Scott. It's not their fault, especially Scott. He's been through alot and he does deserve to love someone. I really hope they meet someday, I really do. They deserve to have someone to love. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2002|09:06 pm] |
I don't know what i'm feeling but I it's really painful. I feel like my heart is being stabbed, I feel horrible. How could I let myself get into this? Why did I have to go to that damned messageboard? Why did I let myself be talked into getting AIM? Why did I have to get so close to this person? Why didn't I just stop going online when I realized I was feeling this way? Why? I hate this. I just want to die...stupid depression. It knows exactly when to hit you with its poison. Why can't life go exactly like you want it? WHY? God..this is ripping me apart. I think i'm going to take a really long walk...I can't stand being in my room anymore. I'll go up to the alley, there i'll be alone and I can think about the mess I got myself into. I am getting rid of stupid AIM, i hate it. I don't want to talk to anyone online in a long time... |
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[Jul. 14th, 2002|08:38 pm] |
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I feel so bad now. I was jerk to Scott and he didn't deserve it. It's not his fault he likes Jason that much, I don't know why I acted that way, I acted really stupid. I'm such an idiot. Now I have to apologize to scott and to everyone else I was a jerk to. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2002|05:07 pm] |
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Hahaha, i'm having too much fun doing this. People on AIM think i'm crazy now. This is too funny. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2002|05:02 pm] |
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I'm in a really weird mood today. I'm really hyper but yet i'm really sad. I went on AIM just now and I acted really crazy. LOL, I was just kidding but I think I freaked out about half of the people online. I don't care anyways, I don't feel good so i'm not going to pretend I feel great. Life is crap...let's move on. |
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